32 months of Glioblastoma – A few things I have learned – Isaiah 26:3

Mike has been in this fight for his life for 32 months.  For a diagnosis of Glioblastoma, grade 4 brain cancer, this is amazing. In all honesty, I can’t face this without my faith. I know not everyone shares the same belief, but its the only thing getting me through.

The days are hard, but when you know that the bigger picture is about so much more than life on this earth, there is a peace that can be found. No matter what, our happy ending is with Jesus…I really believe that.  John 16:33 tells us “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

When you can find a steadfast stance in your mind to trust in God, peace will be there also. I was going through my photos this morning and saw this field photo that I took a month before Mike’s cancer journey started and created this that I plan to print out and frame in my house.

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I don’t say this from a place of ignorance.  Believe me, we are facing some heart wrenching days.  Mike has not been able to speak in 24 hours and we are facing the reality more and more each day that the days are limited if there is not a miracle. He is not bedbound, but he is confused often and unsteady. His pain seems to be under control the past 24 hours.  I’ve really tried to be steadfast in my petitioning for peace in our home. I’ve known that increasing the presence of God in our home would make it possible for death to lose some of its sting.  I truly believe with all my heart that in God’s presence, peace and joy can overcome ANY circumstance. God’s peace is independent of any other situation.  It is not dependent on favorable weather in our lives.  It is available on the sunny days and it is available in the storms.  We can have the darkest valley and still have peace.

I was telling Kenzie that a friend of ours was feeling better after completing a year of chemo.  She asked me when her Daddy was going to feel better, so I had to tell her that some people don’t get better.  She said “I know when he will feel better.” I asked her “When?”  Her response was “When he is in heaven.”  So I said, “You are right! There is no pain or sadness in heaven, but guess what there is??  Dancing!”   I told her when our loved ones go on to dance with Jesus that we celebrate.

I will praise Him in this storm, and I will lift my hands.

One of my long time favorite songs has been “Praise You in This Storm,” I will share the lyrics and a video that I created using the song when Mike completed radiation.

“I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

[Chorus:]
And I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

[Chorus]

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth”


5 responses to “32 months of Glioblastoma – A few things I have learned – Isaiah 26:3

  • Dianna Hamilton

    Once again you amaze me-such a beautiful song and pictures. I was raised Catholic but have not been a practicing catholic for a long time. Someone gave me the book Jesus Calling and I read it everyday. I feel closer and talk to Jesus all the time now-wish I had when my husband was dying. I know he is in a better place but it has been 15 months and things seem harder. I am soo happy for you that Jesus has been with you on this whole journey with Mike and you are at peace. My prayers will continue for you and your family🙏❤️🙏💜🙏💛

    • shaunaemmons

      Dianna, I have Jesus Calling and Jesus Today – they are amazing books. Thanks for your kind words. I appreciate all of your journey that you shared in the support group when you were going through the rough days of losing your husband. I think about you and the others often.

  • kfowler1102

    I can’t find the right words, but please know others who have gone through similar experiences with a brain tumor are also keeping you and your family in our prayers! For me sometimes it is so hard to praise Him in the storm when we are adults and going through the toughest trials of our lives but you are setting a beautiful example for your children as evidenced in what Kenzie said. That was touchingly beautiful and brought tears to my eyes and I am just one reading your blog in the world of GBM.
    This prayer has been a help for me:
    God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference
    Living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time, accepting hardship as a pathway to peace, taking this imperfect world as it is, not as I would have it, trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will so that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with You forever in the next Amen.

  • Ruth

    I just came upon your blog today. My husband passed away 5 weeks ago today after a 21 month battle with glio. This was one of the song I picked for his funeral. The other song was by Laura story, her husband also has a brain tumor. Blessing come through tear drops.
    God Bless

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